I just mastered the art of sitting while sleeping..
and I didnt even realise it until my dad wakes me up..
and found myself "waking up"..

I'm just too tired.

behind this plastered smile, lies tears.

some ppl just dont know what is JOB scope.
can dont keep passing me your shits?

some of you may know..
I'm still wanted! lolx.. wanted as in, being chased..
by not 1 but THREE!!
I wont reveal the name..
within just 1week and suddenly spring these 3 guys.. lol
my tao hua just so good..
but of course, the thing I keep telling them is..
I got bf, and I love him very very much.
so, 2 settled. 1 nvr contacted me anymore. (hurray!) another one, became just friends. ( yes! i dont lose a friendship over it! )
left 1 which is still so stubborn..
dont dare to hurt a guy anymore.. understood the feeling of "hurt" v deeply..
so, just keep hinting him tt we cant be tgt..
cause I had Jeffrey.

my ex told me again those words..
in which I longed not to hear it..
I didnt felt happy,
just sorry for him..
he's bz with work, so gf is not a priority.
I cant settle with his decision.
though I dont know I'm rank what in Jeff's life..
it just made me wonder..
if he's working like my ex..
will he, too, placed me as un- impt?
to a man, career is impt.

what shld i do then?
how can I still maintain our own priority?
i dunno.

adulthood.
m I ready for it?

just checked out my friend's picture of valentine's day..
we went exactly the same location..
saw the same, glow-in-the-dark stick man, who proposed to his gf during valantine's day using glow-in-the-dark sticks and arrange them into letters, placed them at a location near the sea and there's alot of people there watching.
lol.

my friend's valentine's day.
felt very xingfu from their photos.

what's the future lies ahead?
i cant foresee it.
everyone else seems to have plans for the future.. what abt me?

the day before ytd. we all chionging. thought everyone will be shag so bought mochii to cheer everyone.. turns out, all mochi melted. =\ wasted.

ytd fyp end le. everyone seems gloomy. went for the stupid talk. went clubhouse to slack.and so call sleep. really shebuder to leave this school.. more like, regret never really make "stable" friends when I'm in poly.. only during this fyp, this "family" that I know really make me feel very very regret. haix.

wanted to meet dear for a hug. that's all I need to make me feel better. but cant pangseh my friends.. so in the end, nvr go meet him..

went on to wait for ferguson to come and drive us to eat zhuchao. this time, went yishun. not bad. though dunno the place, but the food was nice. for 16plus per person, we ate crab, prawn, tofu and veggie. lol. pity ferguson for having to eat the whole noodle by himself =x

nicenice crabby. long time nvr eat crab. congrats to wanrong for learning how to shell crabs and prawns! =D very very full.. took grp photo again. lol.

ferg say y never ask my bf to fetch go home, I said cause gt reason.. then I remind him of the reason.. ht asked how come i n him so close. lol. then wr told ferg abt that guy who wants to jio me. haix.

( did I hear.. what?? got guy jio you?! you gt bf le leh! )
ya. i told him. it's been the 9th time I told him and he still kept coming strong. in another aspect, I was thinking, hmmm... not bad, I'm still sought after.. =x HAHA! what an evil thought.

honestly. I really want to be friends with him.. but seems like, it's getting harder and harder when ppl around me dont support of him.. not that I keep want him to want me.. is just tt.. y cant I save this friendship instead? y must I submit to ditching this friend cause he likes me? ftw. that night really show the true colours of the people I know.. perhaps my thinking was differ from them..

ya, my bf knows. he didnt do anything abt it. he doesnt even budge, why should the rest of you? or perhaps, it's something else that's warning me to be ready.. i dont know.

meet bf today. in his car. he kept calling. at home, he kept calling. 21miss calls. and 8messages. perhaps, I should just lose this friendship..

tml is wsd test date. another wtf matter. i know nuts about programming cause I need to be revised twice before understanding. aint I dumb? just hope I could get it over and DONE with.

just felt like crying.
turnning into vegetarian.. cause I have alot of inherited health problems.. dont die too soon plz. though my life line seems short.